Little
Lower Than Angels
By David Feist,
Class of 2014
Kernersville, North
Carolina
For Thou hast
made man a little lower than the angels, and hast
crowned him with
glory and honour. Psalm 8:5
Have you
ever felt really down on yourself? Felt depressed, tired, and worthless? Think
that there is no purpose to life and that you are so insignificant that even
God has abandoned you? I felt this way frequently when I was around the age of
twelve years old. I felt that I was nothing more than another animal roaming
this earth and that I would never contribute anything of worth to this planet,
let alone in the eyes of a perfect deity, to whom "even your greatest
works are as filthy rags." How could I embrace life feeling so
insignificant and filthy? Many dark thoughts began to come to my mind, making
me feel even less like a significant human, and more like just another beast
that roams on all fours. I kept asking God for answers to questions that are
impossible to explain.
"If
you love your children so much, why have we come this far?" I screamed
into the air. "Why is it that there is so much pain under your ‘loving’
reign? Why do you allow people to suffer so much? Is there no justice under the
sky?"
This
kind of attitude towards God stayed with me for the next few years. But as I grew older I began to see and
understand more. I see now that not
everything is that painful. Not everyone suffers. And though God may often seem
silent, He works in very strange ways to find an outcome that suits His plan.
The fact that you are on this beautiful earth means that you are a part of His
plan -- that you are significant for something or someone. You might never be
the new Einstein and you may never make your way into the history books. But,
to someone close to you, your life can make all the difference in theirs.
We are
special in God's eyes. We were created
not only a little below angels, but in His own divine image! How then, can we
feel as though we are not special and worth something to Him? God has taken so
much care in creating us.
When I think of the troubles of this
world, I think about what my dad used to always tell me, "Son, don't sweat
the little stuff, and trust me, its ALL little stuff."