Here I Am Again

Here I Am Again

By Shyenne Butler, Class of 2013

Atlanta, Georgia

It is better to dwell in the wilderness,

than with a contentious and an angry woman. Proverbs 21: 19

Here I am

Back where I began

It all started, from one little sin

So here I am… again 

I don’t know what happened

I had the victory earlier, but Satan tested me and I fell

Now I sit here, feeling all locked up, as if I’m in a jail cell

I hurt the people I love, while trying to seek revenge

Now I feel like a door, with no hinge

At first when it all happened, there was that demon’s voice

It told me that if I sat there and let someone walk all over my pride, I would be making an unwise choice

My heart was thumping, bumping, and pumping, while pounding hard against my chest

I then released all of the words that cut like knives, and made sure I did my best

At that moment I failed my test

Another scene

Now I’m on my knees trying to undo what I did

God lovingly let me know once you’ve said something; you can’t replace it with a lid

Well now I know, I am sure

I learned something the hard way, I should’ve learned before

Yeah, the other person could have helped some

This isn’t about their faults though, it’s about mine

With that being said, I need to stop trying to paint my own pictures,

And let God do the whole design